Not a great month. This is about the update for February. I got it a few weeks ago, but was really upset and didn't want to post about bad news. There was basically no change from January to February. Ugh!
This adoption process is so much harder than I thought it would be. I feel like I just had a negative pregnancy test. No good news this month, maybe in 4 weeks. On the bright side, February is a short month and our March update will be here soon! Hopefully it brings better news. More bad news would be so hard right now!
I guess I having the "adoption doubts." A baby seems so close and at the same time so far away. Will it really happen? Did they lose our file? Will they find some reason to deny us at the last minute? Will South Korea change policies or wait times before our referral? Will the country close adoption completely? Some days can be so hard. I am so invested in this, I guess it is normal to be scared.
I just thought emotionally this was going to be so much easier than infertility treatments. Boy was I ever wrong. I think in some ways it is harder. I feel like I have no control over anything. At least with the treatments I was doing injections and swallowing pills and going to appointments. I was active. Since the paperwork is basically done until we get a referral, I feel like I am just sitting here. I am waiting for other people and trusting in them. That is hard thing to do for me - especially since I have no relationship with these other people.
I know it seems silly to be upset about an e-mail. But delays hurt. You think you are getting somewhere and time lines are moving along at a steady pace. Then things come to a sudden halt and you get whiplash!
Here's to March being a better month!!!!